My Job...

I know it's only nice to inform everyone personally about what exactly my job is but i am getting so sick and tired of it. In fact, other than that my job pays me a good sum of money everytime i work, i don't know why i got myself into it in the first place. Is it for the glitz and glam? Or is it just my materialistic self that convinced me to get into it? I believe everyone is materialistic in a way, so don't tell me that you're not. So right now, i'm putting my good will aside and just announce to everyone who comes to my blog about my actualy job position. I am a cabin crew. An air stewardess working for SIA.

Am i happy with my job so far? I don't know. Every time i fly, i need to know where my errors are and even if what i do is what i am taught, it may not be right in the eyes of the seniors. The words 'sorry' and 'thank you' are like a new language to me altogether. Respect is not earned but expected of you to give to the seniors. Even if you're not wrong, you've to say sorry. Practically speaking, you're nothing. You're just a small fry there for them to pick on and make fun of. Of course there are nice crew around but really genuinely nice ones? I don't know. They will be nice to you if you appear humble to them (and i mean being humble to the extend where by you almost treat them like they are VIPs or gods) and say your 'sorry's and 'thank you's. Oh yes..you may not eat or drink unless you offer them one first. Even if you are offerred a drink, offer it back to them. And never never ever allow them to help you with anything. You don't know what they'll think. Even if they are genuine about helping you, politely decline their offer and finish whatever you're doing asap. But if you see that your senior is real busy, offer to help even if you don't wish to and appear genuine about it.

Good thing about this job? You won't get to see the same set of flight crew on your next flight. So if you're unhappy with this set of crew, maybe you'll just be with them for 8 days at most if you're doing a long flight with them. Shortest? Maybe a few hours for doing turn around flights. So why am i still this unhappy? Coz i've to constantly know what have i done wrong and please everyone when i can't expect others, (and here i mean other people and not the crew i work with) to know what they had done wrong to anger me so much. They think that by doing things that i wish that they will do, will give them the immunity against the warth of my anger. But what i want is the reason behind what i wish they will do for me. Telling me about plans and stuff is not just as simple as it seems. I don't want a reporting system. I can have all of that at work. Why do i need more? I just want people to sincerely and genuinely care to tell me about plans and stuff. Maybe i should just give up. Do more flights, be away more often, don't care about things, sleep my days away when i'm not working, shop myself silly with all these pay that i'm getting. Simply put, numb myself. Or maybe i should just become a b*tch myself and be self consumed, self-centered. Maybe then i won't be so bitter. *laughs*